So I’m sitting here on and off all morning because my daughter makes me nuts! What were the fights about this morning? What weren’t the fights about?.. First thing in the morning we had a sweet cuddle, but as soon as we finished breakfast the fights began... She doesn’t want to do homework! She doesn’t want to get dressed! She doesn’t want to stop playing her iPad and rush for her school bus..short! Mama, you never understand anything!....Why say yes when you can say no? ....Why say no when you can scream it? my six-year-old is a complex child..entirely different from the five-year-old... Though many of the changes are for the good — Six is growing more mature, more independent, more daring and adventurous... Relationships with mothers are crazy here...ahemm ahemmm

lets face it.... im a moody person.... n i hv become so concious of my body... i cant change that anymore than i can change the colour of my hair...yee.another analogy would be my obsession with myself.... more like reality..I need to control my food intake too and i need to be well fed all the time... I'm picky about what i eat therefore i need to eat what suits me... If i dont eat and must eat what i like cos otherwise i wont eat.. my energy levels go down and that leads to my injuries and to others too...hehe.. Now people who know me might laugh at how much importance i give to food ..the past few days I've started paying more attention to wut i eat and i eat right food and the things that impact my health.. this is survival... i try and avoid conflict...thxx i avoid thinking about whats wrong in the world. i dont think about the past, i adapt to the situation around me so that i have no regrets about what is lost or what cant be... living in the moment and being happy in that moment... thats not to say that i havent learnt from my past or i dont think about the future... or that i care only about myself. I cant have people around me be unhappy because that makes me unhappy. so i try and make them happy...I finally had some measure of control in my life and over my feelings... we were talking about eating... not eating = crankiness... mix that up and include a back injury ... well you can just imagine...I m hungry .. i think i'll go eat something... damn damn damn....you know sometimes in the middle of the night when i cant sleep for a while and i start feeling hungry ..i then start dreaming of eggs and... toast....well dats my comfort food.

There has been no place where this blog wasn’t written My sofa, my bed, my beanbag...the most favorite..sitting in balcony... I still don’t know why my fingers were vibrating while typing this on my laptop...Here I am.. flashing back all the memories that live with somewhere in deep corners of my heart... Peeling the layer one by one and looking them.. smiling and sometimes blushing... How was I long back ago ?...All the things that I came across..each individual I have met..every song I have heard..every place where I visited... I don't remember everybody's names...but yes, I know.. You all are the reason for me...where I am standing right now...Its been 29 years of my life..but what Life means,I learnt it today...Its about being to yourself only..All the mistakes I did in past..I have compiled them all and given them a name called 'Experience'....Today, I realized it.. being truthful is the best option for everything...Thank you all..the one who had been a part of my life, made me realize what actually things are and how to live with and without them !I have met people.. who wished, prayed and cared for me always. And they, only they are my strengths...Almost everybody taught me the lesson of patience..which makes me stand strong today..

There comes a point in life where Fun no longer means clubbing,drinking or being out till 4am or thinking about yourself! Fun means Disney movies,family dinners,bed time stories,long cuddles,messy house,sleeping by 10 Pm and hearing little voice says 'I love U'.Becoming a Parents doesnt change u, it makes u realize that the little People YOU created deserves the best of your TIME :)

Its been 17 days that a new year has started..for me...its always been calender rolling in...but thinking of the year gone back...i can sum up 2012 in words...few months brought me lot of happiness and unforgettable memories for life time and few months gave me strange experiences to learn the reality of life..i went through my old posts today and re- reading it ..i smiled at myself for writing with so much of innocence and i wish i could write that way again...i obviously can..i have so much to say...so many things to write but donht know what resists my feelings to be penned down..maybe somehow confused..

When I woke up today morning after a so called hectic week... it seemed that I have a lot of "writing" ideas inside me... Shaayad it is the free flowing creative thoughts… when in a state of semi-consciousness...Before me even stepping down from my bed.. I start my day by talking to my god.. If I don’t perform this daily ritual.. I feel… something is missing... Maybe it’s the trust, faith and belief inside me…Questions started erupting in my mind and they seemed totally profound. Does God hear me praying every morning? Is God happy with me? Does he want me to do anything more than this?...arghhhhh NO PANGAAS!!! Plzzz excuse me... as I don believe in illogical beliefs and by the way this is my post and I get to write what I feel; so pls do go ahead and read.... Don't break heads n hearts!!! Ok here goes the posting...Life has been very topsy turvy last few months....personally..I have no bloody Idea where I am..except for ki life feels good as usual...freak...my birthday comming up in few days...damn excited.. I still have those memories with me… When I was a kid..standing in front of the class.. in my new birthday dress and the whole class singing the birthday song and I m smiling and thanking everybody while they pick their toffees..Years passed on… The toffee distribution stopped and transformed into treats and birthday cards by my frnds..open house.. which was adda to my school was our favorite treat spot.. non-stop masti and mazaak...Further years passed on… Birthday celebrations in college are of a different.. I was introduced to my new mobile phone then.. When the clock struck 12… the ceremony used to begin.. The ritual of sms n texts.. I miss those lovely days now… Friends and family moved awaybut the celebration still goes on..

I loveee living in Dubai..

I have been living in Dubai for 5 yrs now and can say I lowwwe Dubai...I have my own reasons to love Dubai..Indian expat living in an Arab country..I can get ANYTHING delivered at any hour..night or day..food especially.. Burger King and Ravi at 3 AM!! No problem!....as the azaan begins at 5 AM and can be heard in every corner of Dubai 5 times a day....I now say my own prayer for peace regularly..also Skype keeps me in touch with frndz n family back home and make it is easy now to participate and enjoy family drama from a distance.... in a matter of minutes,i can hear Arabic..English... Hindi..Tagalog.. Tamil... Sinhalese.. French..Italian..German, and some I can’t identify though..the joy of making frnds here..expats are bound together by the instinct to survive..so friendships are formed very quickly... My husband has a job and I dont go out to work..as my energy level is quite high.. I am not at all nervous about not working and being just a homemaker.. Happily.. I have slipped into a daily rhythm that is fulfilling...