lets face it.... im a moody person.... n i hv become so concious of my body... i cant change that anymore than i can change the colour of my hair...yee.another analogy would be my obsession with myself.... more like reality..I need to control my food intake too and i need to be well fed all the time... I'm picky about what i eat therefore i need to eat what suits me... If i dont eat and must eat what i like cos otherwise i wont eat.. my energy levels go down and that leads to my injuries and to others too...hehe.. Now people who know me might laugh at how much importance i give to food ..the past few days I've started paying more attention to wut i eat and i eat right food and the things that impact my health.. this is survival... i try and avoid conflict...thxx i avoid thinking about whats wrong in the world. i dont think about the past, i adapt to the situation around me so that i have no regrets about what is lost or what cant be... living in the moment and being happy in that moment... thats not to say that i havent learnt from my past or i dont think about the future... or that i care only about myself. I cant have people around me be unhappy because that makes me unhappy. so i try and make them happy...I finally had some measure of control in my life and over my feelings... we were talking about eating... not eating = crankiness... mix that up and include a back injury ... well you can just imagine...I m hungry .. i think i'll go eat something... damn damn damn....you know sometimes in the middle of the night when i cant sleep for a while and i start feeling hungry ..i then start dreaming of eggs and... toast....well dats my comfort food.

There has been no place where this blog wasn’t written My sofa, my bed, my beanbag...the most favorite..sitting in balcony... I still don’t know why my fingers were vibrating while typing this on my laptop...Here I am.. flashing back all the memories that live with somewhere in deep corners of my heart... Peeling the layer one by one and looking them.. smiling and sometimes blushing... How was I long back ago ?...All the things that I came across..each individual I have met..every song I have heard..every place where I visited... I don't remember everybody's names...but yes, I know.. You all are the reason for me...where I am standing right now...Its been 29 years of my life..but what Life means,I learnt it today...Its about being to yourself only..All the mistakes I did in past..I have compiled them all and given them a name called 'Experience'....Today, I realized it.. being truthful is the best option for everything...Thank you all..the one who had been a part of my life, made me realize what actually things are and how to live with and without them !I have met people.. who wished, prayed and cared for me always. And they, only they are my strengths...Almost everybody taught me the lesson of patience..which makes me stand strong today..

There comes a point in life where Fun no longer means clubbing,drinking or being out till 4am or thinking about yourself! Fun means Disney movies,family dinners,bed time stories,long cuddles,messy house,sleeping by 10 Pm and hearing little voice says 'I love U'.Becoming a Parents doesnt change u, it makes u realize that the little People YOU created deserves the best of your TIME :)

Its been 17 days that a new year has started..for me...its always been calender rolling in...but thinking of the year gone back...i can sum up 2012 in words...few months brought me lot of happiness and unforgettable memories for life time and few months gave me strange experiences to learn the reality of life..i went through my old posts today and re- reading it ..i smiled at myself for writing with so much of innocence and i wish i could write that way again...i obviously can..i have so much to say...so many things to write but donht know what resists my feelings to be penned down..maybe somehow confused..