First few words...

Celmira is now 18 months old...me and assad have listed her first few words in all these months....
daddy
mamma
two
three...ofcourse without saying one: )
boo ( book)
tyre
bappa (backpack)
dawa (medicine)
dauwraa (dora the cartton character)
pa( pani)
yes
no
come
tata
bye
hi
allah
shoe
hish (fish)
chuchu (susu)
baby
coco (chochlate)
babbu (bubbles)
yummmy
here
there
eyesh (eyes)
dada
dadi
nana
nani
chochu (chachu)
bhauu (dog)
meow (cat)
cow
bollly (ball)
e( alphabet E )
do (give)
lo (take)
khao (eat)
aaja (come)
......and like any cute toddler she answeres to few questions..here's it...
what is your name?
memmmi (celmi)
what does santaclaus do?
hooooo hoooo hoooo
what does johny do?
hooo hooo hoooo
where is light?
there...(showing her fingers up )
where is celmira?
here (showing herself)

she surprises us by learning new words everyday...

This is probably the most honest note I have ever posted on my Blog...This is one of those things that one writes in your private diary and wants nobody to read them...But I had this urge to blog about it...coz I had hidden it from myself for so long that I wanted to unhide it now not just from myself but everyone...Time has cleared my head about a lot of things, about myself....not the dark side of me..but Me....I am selfish-very selfish!.... I take more than I give... I am not Money Minded... I am a dependent person......... I am demanding in a relationship!... I end up controlling others lives.... I am rude and mean and hurt others to seek revenge!...I am short-tempered and hurt others with my words!....This is Me.... Sorry..... Not sorry for being me....but for how me would have hurt those who are with me...but there is someone who loves me inspite of all these...he does and I believe him....I wanted to be his wife and ended up being his best friend....Its nice to finally see things clearly...and this is not a self-pity post...just my first attempt to be honest to myself...no no this is not the effect of sach ka samna!!!..I dont intend to change myself after this coz I am not sure if I can and want to change any of it.....this is Me...take it or leave it....

You know those dreams you have when you are in school?... you know those ones... the one where you are naked in front of class or its exam day and you forgot to study for it or its late at night and you are alone in a dark school ....my classic school nightmares were usually about an exam and not knowing where the exam room was or forgetting to study....All those nightmares are classic stress, dislike and sheer boredom and annoyance with school....but i dont get such kind of dreams anymore...is it the signs of a well balanced life.....!!!